road to be taken

big girl dreams big remember about this post? i crapped alot about my future...but the nearer i m to the end of student life, the more nervous i tend to be.

 My dream still remain but somehow i feel like I can hardly enter into the airline * negative evil is whispering to me always* and what should I do while waiting for the recruitment? how long must i wait? and i feel like I am running out of time..i havent take up swimming course, conversation course....

Maybe by working in my hometown for temporary is the best choice as i dont have to spend alot to rent a house, meals and the most important i dont wish to carry a burden by paying for car yet~~~

arghhh headache with all those questions that popped out into my mind...so from today onwards i will make myself not to think much..what i need to do are just to study well, pass my exam...take up courses...and just go whenever there is an opportunity...is not that i dont give a damn but i have no idea!!!!! 

*okay..i know many people that understand me well already had enough with my crap but this is me!!!! there are always angel and evil in me* +ve -ve +ve -ve~~~ okay...gonna cut the crap...chao~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Kitty obsession

I am a kitty lover!! a crazy kitty fans~~ if i m afford to.. i will decorate my room my house and everything with kitty stuff..i wish i can go to hello kitty cafe,stay in hello kitty hotel room n therefore i will save for it and i  promise myself i will definitely be there at least once in my lifetime :D

i wish to have more kitty collections in near future :D

"braid"fast

just got home from my e-commerce class. story started~~~~~

i was late about 10 mins to the class simply due to the stupid utar with the ballot kind of stuff and i got to walk in to campus ( okaylar..blame me for laz to get up as well..ahaha), then the tutor approached me with the attendance list and asked me are u late cause of your braid? ( at first i didn't notice that he noticed about my braid and i sort of thinking he asking about bread? break? coz i was still like breathing rapidly after the fast walk....) and so i just answered him with "no" perfunctorily.

After i signed my attendance, he was once again asked that, how long you took for the braid? ( he kinda noticed about my blurriness and said braid *while pointing to my fringe* and not the bread!!)  OH MY gosh..i got it BRAID...i told him only 5 mins and he answered me " so skillful" in a sarcastic manner......erm okay...i will never be late to his class again....luckily he didnt say it out loud.

recently my complexion really sucks to the max...i wish some things or people can cure me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

look back on~~

there are alot of things to be recalled once i open the folder by folder of pictures that had been taken within this 4 years~~~ seriously have kinda unmentionable complicated feelings...sometimes i feel so regretted that how come everything will turn out like this...its totally different from what we thought when we first entered the U...but we can't help...that's all about life..about things that we might gonna face more in future....

taken in year 2007

year 2010 i think

2010 may

these 2 were taken on moon festival on the year of 2008

Memory will be retained as only memory after all :')

*I am still working on the phrase of be myself, but sometimes i seriously feel that i fail cause all those nice memory surged up within me *

Big girl dreams big xD

As i said I m 22 this year and I m ending my study life so soon, its never too early to plan about my future right now. Definitely i have big dreams and thought in my mind...i cannot guarantee everything will come true but i will never let go any chance that will make me get into those dreams.

Firstly, i wanna flyyyyyyy~~~~ my priority airline will definitely be the SIA but from the survey and comment i had is that, its tough..but no matter what, i will just give it a shot. try the best that i can, otherwise, i will go for airasia, MAS or whatever airlines. I will try my very best
to squeeze myself in either one of the airline in the world!!!

Secondly, after have some money in the bank, i would want to do some investments which are less risky, fixed deposit unit trusts and whatever *gotta survey more detail about it when the times come*

thirdly, if i manage to have a certain amount of saving, i will try to invest in share market, risky yet interesting investment.....*that's why i said i will only do if i have a certain sum of extra money..ekekek*

fourth, when it almost time to settle down to have my own family and ,, i would want to open a cafe *best  if its can be a kitty cafe* heheehe but only after owning my own home xD

fifth, when my age is approaching 55, i will be considering to buy a van, turn in into a kitty van and i could have been selling ice creams, candy floss all over the places in a town??  i can bring my little grandchild or grandchildren along, perhaps?? :D

I guess its not a big dream right? i never thought of to earn big money or to be rich, i just want to have a simple and comfortable life....i m a really down-to-earth girl dont u think so?? xD

Another lame stuff~~

was packing my little bears to be brought back to my hometown as i m graduating soon, and unexpectedly i digged out a small little doggie that she gave me on valentines few years back...*ooops don't get me wrong I am not a lesbian* then it made me recall so many things again....actually i knew from the  deep down bottom of my heart that i couldn't just click a delete button and clear those away....but i just hope to keep those nice one and clear those unfavorable one. Nevertheless no matter what is it, for sure we will never be back to what we used to be. it might just be my personal problem, i don't know.but Imma gonna be myself!!! i hope others won't be sick of listening this from me...again xD...i won't force myself to please anyone if i really dont feel to....

LOLL..have not selca-ing for long...okay...wait i get myself done with make up and dress up i will do it as like nobody's business xD

those pictures are obviously not selca-ed...its done by photographer in taiping...seriously love them *because they showed the prettiest me* ahahahaha