A great procrastinator

Indeed I am, again...i lied to my little diary. was busy with all sort of things and lazy to get my fingers stuck-ed on the keyboard. Nothing much happened within these 2 weeks, the major one was only my celebration. celebration marathon xD.

 celebration photo with buddies in papparich. Now i realize its so hard to get a selca picture of mine. Maybe i just dont love myself that much?


 *Its not that i'm having a perfect life, its just that i don't expose every single matter that i gone through *

Checklist!!

oh my little diary, have been dumping you for ages. here i m back :)  have tonnes of stories to tell you so that i wouldn't have missed out any when i "flip" you back in the future.

okay, couldn't have done all these tonight because gonna sleep early for ipoh food trip tomorrow. yeaay! *stomach growling*

To 'write' list:

• penang prom and trip
• part time job
• interview
• singapore trip
• "goyang kaki" life
• Ipoh food trip
• melaka trip

start writing day after tomorrow and decorate my little diary :D

 

end my night with a mischievous photo with my bitch on the left :D

*each time i fail, i do believe that it creates a better me. *

Am i a bitchhhh?

I was wondering m i just being too small-minded or the truth is so.... only U will know. too many times of coincidence really hard to be convincing after all.

窒息

这一科真的好讨厌！ 我背得头要爆了，泻了两次。以为麦叔叔可以为我解压， 巧克力也吃了可是我头还是痛得很。 现在已经紧张，唱歌， 爆食 。。。无效。试一下写日记 =（ 很快，明天很快就过。 可是成绩呢？=（

继续背书去T。T 好想大哭并放弃， 可是我知道我不能~~~！！

*加油吧自己！！！*

what if..

How fine it gonna be if things were like today for everyday. sometimes less of consideration might explode into some bigger relationship problems. and That's what i trying to make myself be in my quote " humans are born differently in nature how else moderate tolerate and consideration would work everything out" and i need some from others as well as my toleration still have limits at times.

 i used to be one with less consideration and toleration as well when i was young but i know i am improving and wish to improve more

despite the annoying part, as time passes, i seriously feel kinda reluctant to leave this small little town that i used to say i hate but i had live here for more than 4 years and the days i were here were much longer than i were in Taiping. gonna say goodbye soon :'-(  

I had gone through my both my good and hard time here, sweet and bitter memories and no matter what they were, indeed it made me grow into a stronger person as it makes me realize that i can't be so simple minded and acted like a pampered kid anymore. 

* i just wish to be a better girl with less confusion in myself-- i hate being influenced so easily*

get me out of hereeeeee!

This is my final semester and i know i will  miss here much after i left but now there's something that make me feel so annoying and kinda irritating...i wanna get out of here so much ..right now!!!

rock the island!!

I went to penang once again last month. wanted to blog about it but my fingers were stuck halfway..LOL. okay..in short, i went there for my sei dog's birthday and let the pictures speak on my behalf.

went to Tao in E Gate ( sei dog was teasing me for writing it as east gate..as i used to say east gate of utar and east lake..LOLL) , i not sure whether the auto city one would be the same but its rather disappointing. BBQ Plaza is the best :D went to penang hill, karaoke, macarons :D and many many more. seriously enjoy throughout the trip =) * many pictures more and I am lazy enough to upload..hehe*

My life's principle

If u ask me do i love a big house? a big car? Bullshit...confirm I'm lying if i say no. but i wouldn't make myself suffer and save like hell just for the sake of having them. I'm born not to bear unnecessary debt yet to enjoy! if i m forced to buy a house and a car, i will cause i need them but only those that within  the amount that i can afford.

so don't question me if you found out I'm living in a small house, driving a cheap car. as its a funny question to me. IF i am financially well, for sure i will get good one lar. buying a house or a car is not like buying a toy, its like  something that tie u up for part of your life!! measure the hole of your pocket before getting one.  so if i dont have a big head, i wouldnt wear a big hat--> thats what chinese used to say.

Whats the purpose of house and car?i think even a child learned it from school.  but now, the definition of car and house= show off!! i would say childish!! why gonna torture own self to change the way how people look at you..they will like "wau..u are rich, you car and house so nice" and that's what you get in return after paying like hell. but they will never ask " is your financial okay? do u need my help?" if you are really in tight budget. IF with the same amount, i get to own a car, a house and enjoy life at the same time, why should I sacrifice the life enjoying part just for others to look high on me. ridiculous.

* Everybody wish to have richer life BUT -- work  to pursue luxury but not  torture yourself for it with zero account balance*

i will make this diary as my own reminder cause i don't want others to ruin my mind by pursuing luxury for no reason after i step into working life! i gonna hold this reminder for lifetime. BUY ONLY IF AFFORD AND SPARE FOR FUTURE..... my principle of life!

let me fall

就算我会跌倒 我都記牢
就算我再跌倒 淚不會掉
OH就讓我跌倒 我會微笑 一想到
有你的懷抱讓我靠
 so meaningful song isnt it? fell in love in this song especially the lyrics and the MV...
and some part of the MV even brought me back to my childhood..though I am considered as a such lucky girl that didn't really have gone through anything that's tough in my life and yet i still realize life isn't easy and i know i will definitely have my hard time as well..hopefully when i meet it i can still say : let me fall, and i wont cry once i thought of those people that love me all the while :D

*this gonna be the song for my bloggie now :D*

colourful world

this world is so colorful....and not to forget black is one of the colors as well !! maybe i haven't step into the real world and so i didn't realize there are various kinds of people in the world....and eventually i met with one annoying guy today...seriously felt like spitting at him and tell him :" shut your stupid mouth and start your work"... but i hold back..cause i don't wanna to look like a bitch in front of others and he is a nobody!! my mood shouldn't be affected by such irrelevant person......

okay end of the throwing out of some tiny stupid stuff and feel better now...

and the more serious one is i wanna look good!!! my complexion really sucks larr....get a little better but still far away from having a glossy skin as like the pictures taken ( with the magic skin effect).....who can help meeeee =( gonna throw in money to "invest" on my face again next month..sigh...

this is original one---look dull and dead..sigh!!

today is not the day~~

feeling weird today...a little of suffocated a little  of not feeling well (physically and mentally) .......and i cant even figure out what's wrong today...not to say depress nor sad...just moody... another unproductive day~~~~~~

幸福是不难事=）

偶尔学会释怀， 珍惜也是件幸福的事 ：D

* 我在做人方面的确有点矛盾。。。原因种种。。不过我会尽量让自己简单快乐点过生活* 

 hopefully i can learn to be the best i can be ...and i really appreciate to have these 2 besties in my life though they have known well that after all,  i am not perfect or x even half of it :D

road to be taken

big girl dreams big remember about this post? i crapped alot about my future...but the nearer i m to the end of student life, the more nervous i tend to be.

 My dream still remain but somehow i feel like I can hardly enter into the airline * negative evil is whispering to me always* and what should I do while waiting for the recruitment? how long must i wait? and i feel like I am running out of time..i havent take up swimming course, conversation course....

Maybe by working in my hometown for temporary is the best choice as i dont have to spend alot to rent a house, meals and the most important i dont wish to carry a burden by paying for car yet~~~

arghhh headache with all those questions that popped out into my mind...so from today onwards i will make myself not to think much..what i need to do are just to study well, pass my exam...take up courses...and just go whenever there is an opportunity...is not that i dont give a damn but i have no idea!!!!! 

*okay..i know many people that understand me well already had enough with my crap but this is me!!!! there are always angel and evil in me* +ve -ve +ve -ve~~~ okay...gonna cut the crap...chao~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Kitty obsession

I am a kitty lover!! a crazy kitty fans~~ if i m afford to.. i will decorate my room my house and everything with kitty stuff..i wish i can go to hello kitty cafe,stay in hello kitty hotel room n therefore i will save for it and i  promise myself i will definitely be there at least once in my lifetime :D

i wish to have more kitty collections in near future :D

"braid"fast

just got home from my e-commerce class. story started~~~~~

i was late about 10 mins to the class simply due to the stupid utar with the ballot kind of stuff and i got to walk in to campus ( okaylar..blame me for laz to get up as well..ahaha), then the tutor approached me with the attendance list and asked me are u late cause of your braid? ( at first i didn't notice that he noticed about my braid and i sort of thinking he asking about bread? break? coz i was still like breathing rapidly after the fast walk....) and so i just answered him with "no" perfunctorily.

After i signed my attendance, he was once again asked that, how long you took for the braid? ( he kinda noticed about my blurriness and said braid *while pointing to my fringe* and not the bread!!)  OH MY gosh..i got it BRAID...i told him only 5 mins and he answered me " so skillful" in a sarcastic manner......erm okay...i will never be late to his class again....luckily he didnt say it out loud.

recently my complexion really sucks to the max...i wish some things or people can cure me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

look back on~~

there are alot of things to be recalled once i open the folder by folder of pictures that had been taken within this 4 years~~~ seriously have kinda unmentionable complicated feelings...sometimes i feel so regretted that how come everything will turn out like this...its totally different from what we thought when we first entered the U...but we can't help...that's all about life..about things that we might gonna face more in future....

taken in year 2007

year 2010 i think

2010 may

these 2 were taken on moon festival on the year of 2008

Memory will be retained as only memory after all :')

*I am still working on the phrase of be myself, but sometimes i seriously feel that i fail cause all those nice memory surged up within me *

Big girl dreams big xD

As i said I m 22 this year and I m ending my study life so soon, its never too early to plan about my future right now. Definitely i have big dreams and thought in my mind...i cannot guarantee everything will come true but i will never let go any chance that will make me get into those dreams.

Firstly, i wanna flyyyyyyy~~~~ my priority airline will definitely be the SIA but from the survey and comment i had is that, its tough..but no matter what, i will just give it a shot. try the best that i can, otherwise, i will go for airasia, MAS or whatever airlines. I will try my very best
to squeeze myself in either one of the airline in the world!!!

Secondly, after have some money in the bank, i would want to do some investments which are less risky, fixed deposit unit trusts and whatever *gotta survey more detail about it when the times come*

thirdly, if i manage to have a certain amount of saving, i will try to invest in share market, risky yet interesting investment.....*that's why i said i will only do if i have a certain sum of extra money..ekekek*

fourth, when it almost time to settle down to have my own family and ,, i would want to open a cafe *best  if its can be a kitty cafe* heheehe but only after owning my own home xD

fifth, when my age is approaching 55, i will be considering to buy a van, turn in into a kitty van and i could have been selling ice creams, candy floss all over the places in a town??  i can bring my little grandchild or grandchildren along, perhaps?? :D

I guess its not a big dream right? i never thought of to earn big money or to be rich, i just want to have a simple and comfortable life....i m a really down-to-earth girl dont u think so?? xD

Another lame stuff~~

was packing my little bears to be brought back to my hometown as i m graduating soon, and unexpectedly i digged out a small little doggie that she gave me on valentines few years back...*ooops don't get me wrong I am not a lesbian* then it made me recall so many things again....actually i knew from the  deep down bottom of my heart that i couldn't just click a delete button and clear those away....but i just hope to keep those nice one and clear those unfavorable one. Nevertheless no matter what is it, for sure we will never be back to what we used to be. it might just be my personal problem, i don't know.but Imma gonna be myself!!! i hope others won't be sick of listening this from me...again xD...i won't force myself to please anyone if i really dont feel to....

LOLL..have not selca-ing for long...okay...wait i get myself done with make up and dress up i will do it as like nobody's business xD

those pictures are obviously not selca-ed...its done by photographer in taiping...seriously love them *because they showed the prettiest me* ahahahaha

A self promise =)

mummy just came back from Taiwan and sei dog is now in AUssie....ooowhhh...it makes me wanna fly so muchhhhhhhhh......okay..i am graduating in less than 6 months time...i promise myself to work hard so that i can at least fly to Taiwan by end of next year.... wanna grab lotsa masks and outfits as what mummy did...shop and eat like a boss....and she got me a CHANEL perfume...my 1st ever CHANEL product and plenty of hello kitty stuff...:D

I am for sure gonna fly and hopefully I can be stewardess as what I always dream to be.

Gambateh!!!  I am for sure gonna work out my self promise....i wont let myself down!!!!! Taiwan~Aussie~~ air stewardess~~ i will try my very very best to achieve these!!!! unless nobody want to take me in.....@@

the angel and devil~~~

okay...had just started the new semester and it is also my last one hopefully *pray*...got my result...better than what i expected :D

first day of the sem~~nothing much....felt bored and nearly fell asleep in the lecture..gotta wake up Geraldine...fight to the last min!!

and seriously i felt that was not being respected over a small matter.....its small but i still hope to gain some respect from others. I am not hoping people to ask for my opinion or anything..you can do whatever you want...you have the right definitely  but please...get me informed.....

aikz whatever shit was it....i will never let all these stupid stuff ruin my mood...had some chats with friends...sometimes it felt like gossiping but for me its more like sharing information...wahahhaa.....but of course not that to spread it everywhere....just to somebody you trusted. and what i understood from stories behind is that past is already past....but if you learned from past and do better now...you definitely still deserve to be trusted....but if you dont....thats no way out i will ever trust u again.....however, sometimes humans are kinda like in conflict situation all the time....everyone persist with the quote "be myself" but do everyone can accept "yourself??".......so things that always come to my minds were that :

• if i always please others...what about myself?
• how much ability i can to please others?
• what is the extend i can please others?
• if i please others, will others try to please me?
• if i were to make myself happy, i might as well make some people to be unhappy with me
• is it good to think about others more than own self?
• is it selfish to think more to own benefits?
• in certain conditions, what kinds of act are considered good or vice versa?

I have always having all this kinda conflict....sometimes i even get so confused that i have no idea to justify the right or wrong...... frankly, i need someone to guide me but who can they be?
at the moment i just think that, maybe to be with people that think from the same points of views are the best way to cut down the conflict...

Price tag~

Its not about the money money money~~ but in the real work its kinda like bullshit...money is not the most important but we can do nothing without money....

erm erm....sounds so materialistic but what to do...this f***ing real world that thought us all these since we were young.... There's none ugly woman but lazy one....HOWEVER!!! what we need to get all those stuff?? its about money matter again....

okie...gonna complete several stuff within these few months...my mission before going interview:

• get colour lens
• skincare (toner,moisturizer, essence)
• some outfits
• some cosmetics perhaps?
• wanna go at least a near trip after i graduate xD 

there's the life of a poor girl...keep counting money though i seriously dont like to....

will the money drop from the sky xD

 Sometimes i might just think that use first plan later so that i will be more happier :D *but but for the sake of everything...saving money at least a little penny also is a must*

A stubborn old princess

daddy already went back half an hour ago....though not much to talk to him sometimes but somehow i feel so warm with his existence....so I am having kinda weird feeling right now...daddy mummy not around =(  I am wondering how am I going to survive oversea next time without them by my side...Kampar still near therefore I still can adapt with it..what if Singapore? how often can I go home?? =(( I am gonna be homesick.....i wanna stick with daddy mummy and be a daddy mummy girl...can I? :'(

another day~~

another day without mummy:
my activities were exactly the same like what other mothers doing...tired~~ I am not a good mother after all..LOLL....feel like reading some english book but there's none at home..might sneak out to popular tomorrow to get one if can :D

okie...was awake since 5+ i think i need a mask to make sure my face wont look like what a typical mum do...(except my mum--she's hot..wahahah)

okie..time for mask...NARUKO masks seriously make me feel so comfy :D either the rose one or the 红薏仁 suit me sooooo freaking well...and not to forget about the 红薏仁 night jelly, i even used it sometimes as moisturizer in the day time as it really made my skin feel so delicate

phewwww time for mask :D

Everything starts from the very first~~

16/5/2012
For the first time:

• Mummy leaving us and going Taiwan 
• she took midnight train ( or first time take train since after like don't know how many years)
• she going for tour ( oversea...pity my mummy, she sacrifice everything for the family, time, money,efforts)
• we were left at home with daddy for first few days following by uncle next few days
• we ate wantan mee in cashier market at 325am ( supper? breakfast?)

• i gotto take care of the whole family

 * so many first time for mummy today :D hopefully she will be happy with the trip so as my grandma....* :D :D

I know its kinda be hard without mummy at home ( we always know how great is she, just we don't know to appreciate her when she's around...haha) ....I am the eldest and i will make everything fine !!! I am a big girl now ( hopefully i can...*oops* )

My beloved family.......

the ugly duckling :D

went for photoshooting yesterday and most of the outcomes really surprised me....the best of me i have seen ..haha

* my next target is to work on my skin to have better complexion...trying new products * :D

Life stages~~

 Just end my last paper for this sem...seeing many people posted on facebook that they are graduating...what about me =( another sem to go...which means less friends will be with me.....feel so sad to see everyone's leaving...at the meantime feel happy for them too..wish them all the best

Though I keep on complaining about Kampar but just in a blink of eye....I had already spent 4 years here....

 I am already 22 by now...and there were so many stages that I myself had gone through

• stayed in Kangar with grandparents till i was 12
• shift back taiping and stayed till 17 ( recalling secondary school memories)
• worked in genting for 3 months...stayed with daddy ( owhhh nice working experience)
• there here I come...Kampar....yea...though i still have 1 more sem to go...i started to miss everything here....my bed my room my friends...my University.....food, aunty, i know its kinda stupid as I used to have tonnes of complains on them...but what to do...THATS ME!!! ( this sem is (or was i should say) the most hectic yet enjoyable sem..i felt like I totally utilized my status as a U student...basketball, badminton, assignments, yamcha, short trip.....just too many things ... feel so reluctant when i think I am about to leave soon.......

yaya and wendy---> miss u la

our hsemate--> leaving soon =(

my sweetie =( hope to see you soon yea!!

leaving 4 of us nx sem.....

I missed this moment so mucchhhh!

 

kecik miao

• next destination--> unknown...hopefully I can achieve my dream.....

wuwuwuwu~~~ I missed all my friends and places so muchhie.....hopefully u all will remember once upon a time..there's a girl namely Geraldine existed in your life before =) 

* best of luck for those who are graduating.....:D